to your comments

@ deeps...thanx gal...howz it goin'?
@ Anup...oye that's a little bit too much of a comparison ;) but when i read the book I did feel a strange 'darkness'...quite similar to what i felt when i read 'God of small things'. I used "I" to make it personal...to cover the distance that a story-telling creates between the writer and the reader...will try and be subtle may be next time ;)
@ Brandy...gal u've got an eye for details...the two do speak of a similar state of mind...as u said once 'an alien' in chicago city!
@ akron...thanx ya...let's see how u feel abt the next one ;) terror i tell ya!
@sap...i guess the key is not to let it turn from a pebble to a boulder and yes joy, victory and sadness all have and must have their respective places.
@ Karthikk...yes it is finding that 'positive' i hope what 'moving on' actually refers to and not ignoring the loss or the pain